Saturday, July 7, 2012

getting dental work

So first off I knew I was going to have to go back to the oral surgeon and then followup with lots of moderate dental care with my dentist.  Never, until now, was I ever anxious going to any of these type appointments.  For crying out loud with the jobs I have had, no way to be anxious taking down a suspect in a felony situation, or doing CPR.  You can be scared, terrified, but anxious and in tears...no you cry later.  But I knew I had to do this. So I got some good rest, thought positive and the closer I got to my surgeons office the closer to tears I was.  By the time he came in and we talked, no way was I going to get an extraction that day.  "Jean you are absolutely being silly about this" "You have had some much work done by this guy who you trust, how can you be so full of anxiety with tears flowing down your face." I said to myself and some to him. We had a good talk and he told me to come back when I was ready and if their was anything he could do to help I could talk to him.  My Oral surgeon and I have gone thru a lot over the last 13yrs.  He reconstructed my face for crying out loud and this is just a tooth extraction.  All the talking to myself didn't work, back in the car I go, madder at myself than I have been in a long time and just furious at the situation.  I can usually laugh myself into a good place, tell a few jokes, smile a lot and be very positive...but that isn't working right now. My humor too, I want back.

So drove home did I.  Talked myself back into relaxing, But why a tooth extraction would have me in a twitter, it was the unknown.  Would my body revert back to the violent flight response around smells? Would the fatigue hit again so strong that I couldn't function? Would it take me another 8 months to recover?  Chances are I would be fine.  We are taking precautions with limited exposures to smells, although the antibacterials really bother me, will be put on prophylactic antibiotics, since last time I developed a major infection and I will continue tai chi and extra vitamins.  So I will prepare myself as well as possible for this invasion into my mouth.  Much better than letting it go and falling rotted out of my mouth.

In the meantime I decided to take it a little slower.  So I decided to go back to my dentist, he has been phenomenal, making sure no staff wear perfumes, they take precautions and try to keep my visits short. He has come up with some positive ways of getting the job done and we pray about it before we start. Hallelujah!  So I arrive for my appointment, go right back into a treatment room and everyone that I talk to said they saw my name on the list and didn't wear any smelly stuff.  I was so pleasant to not be cringing walking down the hall with them or sitting in the chair with them leaning over my mouth.  This sure helped my slight case of anxiety. Letter of appreciation going their way.

So when the doc came in we decided to work on one tooth and put a temporary crown. Took a little over 2 hours with some mild problems but nothing we couldn't handle.  They chemicals they used were very benign with slight odor but not so bad. Overall, I thought it went very well. But I have to confess a part of me still wasn't sure how my body would react over the next couple days.

From the dentist I had to go to my guitar fingerpicking class.  It is so much fun, and he says I have a lot of promise.  Well me and music are quite good together so I hope it is true cause I love the blues.  I was having some problems focusing but he was very patient and we did get quite a bit in our lesson.  By the time I was done, my hands had stopped shaking but I could feel some fatigue coming on.


After a short ride home, I get in the house and know that the light switch in my body has shut off.  No energy at all.  "dang it, I was hoping for the best" "Maybe it is temporary and I won't get the worst"  I went to lay down and say some prayers to my God I so trust and believe in, "Lord, be with me this day and the next so that I can make it thru, send down Your healing powers and keep me on the track of wellness. Lord, I want to get better, so I can get back to praising Your glorious name, preaching Your word thru music and words so that others might see You and Your glorious powers, Amen"

     "That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed everyday.  17, For our present troubles are quite small and won't last very long.  Yet they produce for us an immeasurable great glory that will last forever!  18, So we don't look at the troubles we can see right now; rather, we look forward to what we have not yet seen . For the troubles we see will soon be over, but the joys to come will last forever." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Well, blessing do come. My fatigue was so far, short-lived, only 2 days, although as I am up writing this at 3am on the 3rd day, I hope I can now get some rest and have a marvelous day.  I also will make an appointment with my oral surgeon on Monday for this extraction and with the Lords help will make it through.

     " But this precious treasure - this light and power that now shine within us - is held in perishable containers, that is, in our weak bodies. So everyone can see that out glorious power is from God and is not our own." 2 Corinthians 4:7

If you have read all my blogs you will see that, while God allowed me to crash and touch bottom, in His miraculous glory he has allowed me to get back to my faith and made me stronger in belief and hopefully stronger in spreading the word. Please feel free to ask questions about MCS, or my journey of life with the help of my Savior. Or just anything.  Now I think it is time to go get some rest. May your God bless you.